Here's my thoughts

What am I doing?

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 03:43:35 GMT

Its a sunday night, typically the time when normally i'd be lying within a frantic effort to conclude all the homework necessary before the beginning of the week. However due to my recent decision for the future, I only am currently enrolled in 3 classes that barely require any kind of preparation/thought leaving me homeworkless.

This in part, leads us back to the title of "What am I doing?" I lie in a state needing desperate advice for my future, not only academically but in other deeper secret ways that shall never be mentioned on LJ in its ambiguous nature. However, the normal advisors that I would normally look to for this kind of advice are obviously of no help due to a lack of expertise/emotional ties into the situation.

So I sit here on my couch in my living room not doing hw, not watching tv, not even playing video games contemplating every probable possibility for me which in turn will of course lead to decisions that will soon have to be made.

So from this small composition I have come to the conclusion that I am....thinking.

Long time no LJ

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 06:02:38 GMT

Well its been some time since my last lj entry so i've decided to recap everything that is of importance. There really isn't much. Still doing the FSA(filipino student association) thing and loving every second of it. Hopefully i'll be an officer next year which i foresee to be prety hectic and exciting.

I've dropped chm 2046(Chemistry Fundamentals 2) becuase well, i was failing. And due to my own arrogance, i have decided that i shall never again take chm 2046. Right now i'm leaning towards majoring in legal studies but am still iffy on that just as everyone else is at this time in our college careers.

I just got back from seeing King Kong for the second time(at the cheap theaters) and am just as if not more motivated to go buy the dvd.

As for the rest of my life, i'm in a phase of frustration as to how/what i want for the rest of my life as if it would be impossible to live feeling the way i feel. Fun stuff.

Crowded

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 17:14:05 GMT

Entire lives are spent trying to escape from the crowd. Through work, study,and make utilize talents to the highest ability, to stand out. In all this effort the big picture is forgotten, and when it is finally remembered one only finds himself even more surrounded and powerless. What can be done to escape?

Reminiscing...

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 19:32:34 GMT

I dunno if anyone else has thought about it yet, but I think I had a great experience in high school. We've been in one whole semester of college, and it seems like its the greatest thing ever. Everything that we hated about high school is all gone and it seems like we'll never have to deal with it again.

But it seems to have just hit me this semester, college isn't great. I mean yeah we have more freedom and space to have fun and be ourselves. But what we had in high school, we'll never have again. Now we go through the same routine every week. Sucky class this day, long day at work this day, no fun this day. You have friends, but you feel like they'll never be as close to you as the friends you had in high school. You'll never have the strange but fun experiences day to day that we were all able to be a part of.

But now all we have is the responsibility of our entire life ahead of us. One failed test, one failed class could lead to the downfall of our entire dream of success for the future. With all this pressure, it seems like I don't have any time to do the things that once made me happy.

Growing up sucks.

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 07:37:45 GMT

i guess i just like screwing myself over. either i'm selfish or i'm an idiot. AWESOME!

lingering thoughts....

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 06:33:23 GMT

you try ur hardest to forgive and forget but u can't. you live life trying to forget the mistake, the emotions, the situation. you enjoy and are happy with life, keeping urself distracted, away from those spare moments where a single thought has the time to cross ur mind. but everytime it does u fear it; u feel like it'll never be resolved; never be fixed. and it seems that all that is left is to wonder why u can't forget....

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 15:52:56 GMT

its a great feeling to know that there is no possible way to fail ur class. that is unless u completely bomb the final, which i think might be a little hard. i calculated all my grades today, while i was procrastinating that is, and i figured that the only way i can fail my classes is if i get somewhere below a 50% on any of my finals. and by probability i think that even without knowing the information i can get above a 50% so i think i'm good.

so now all thats left is my sad attempts at studying and then....WINTER BREAK YAY!

oh also i have a big tinikling performance at the TD waterhouse this weekend so wish me luck.

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 16:30:07 GMT

performance tomorrow
5:30 key west ballroom
be there or be square

weekend

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 21:39:53 GMT

can't wait for the long weekend. although everyone will be out and about in miami and such, i'll be here finding ways to entertain myself. i was planning on going to gainesville for dtj(filipino hip-hop competition) but there really isn't any point in me just going up there for that when i can just watch it on video or whatnot. so looking towards a weekend of video games and not spending money and hopefully not failing my classes by the end of the week.

good weekend

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 15:40:11 GMT

it was a pretty fun weekend. friday we kinda had a reunion with maria, rehana, nisha, min, and kathryn at my house and went to the mall where i finally found a titans hat that i'd been looking for forever. from there nisha and christina and i left for gainesville to surprise kenzie as her belated birthday present(to pick her up). after a stop at okahumpka, we finally arrived in gainesville and surprised kenzie. a group of us(in gainesville) all ate together at red lobster and returned home at like 2:30.

Saturday was the yellowcard concert which was pretty freakin awesome. after that we went to see saw 2 which was alright, a bit to gory but had a good ending.

sunday i had my first tinikling performance which turned out to be a crapload of fun and i think, a big success.

i wish every weekend could be like that.

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 19:12:29 GMT

There is this good old barber in some city in the US. One day a florist goes to him for a haircut.

After the cut, he goes to pay the barber and the barber replies: "I am sorry. I cannot accept money from you. I am doing community service."

The florist is happy and leaves the shop.The next morning when the barber goes to open his shop, there is a thankyou card and a dozen roses waiting at his door.

A policeman goes for a haircut and he also goes to pay the barber after the cut. But the barber replies: "I am sorry. I cannot accept money from you. I am doing community service."

The cop is happy and leaves the shop.The next morning the barber goes to open his shop; there is a thank you card and a dozen donuts waiting at his door.

An asian goes for a haircut and he also goes to pay the barber after the cut. But the barber replies: "I am sorry. I cannot accept money from you. I am doing community service."

The asian is happy and leaves.The next morning when the barber goes to open his shop, guess what he finds there?

A dozen asians waiting for a free haircut!

***Stolen from sofiyya's xanga with a small change :P***

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 14:56:33 GMT

my theory is completely true. i freakin failed that chem test that i was complainin about, hopefully i didn't fail the algebra test. fuckin gay ass professors. exactly like high school except with assholish tests. AWESOME!

bak 2 skool

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 19:44:43 GMT

well its off to school/work again. trying to decide if i want that job at friendly's or not. i think i'll take it considering that i need a new phone and a job for the christmas break and summer. last weekend was a lot of fun. it was great to be able to see jasmine again as well as all the gators.

two tests this week. chem and algebra. neither of them should give me problems but i'm scared that they will. i've come to realize that college isn't any harder than high school, the teachers just are HUGE ASSHOLES and make the test uber tricky for all of the students. for both algebra and chem i know the stuff, its just that they set up the tests for arrogant assholes like me to fail. i guess i'll just pray for good grades on these next 2 tests

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 01:08:06 GMT

GOOD WEEKEND!

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 03:31:46 GMT

OK EVERYONE THIS IS IMPORTANT!!!!!!

FRIDAY OCT 7 : HALOWEEN HORROR NIGHTS $40 CALL ME IF U WANT ME TO GET U A TICKET...WE'RE GOIN WHETHER U COME OR NOT

SATURDAY OCT 8 : EVERYONE COMES TO MY HOUSE, movies, karaoke, maybe goin dancing, maybe goin go-carting...whatever everyone wants to do.

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 14:23:05 GMT

back at school again. another exciting week of skipping classes and sitting around. i'm hoping this week will go by fast, which by saying that i know it wont. planning on going to gainesville this weekend to go visit kenzie. pretty excited about that, and halloween horror nights which will be great just because everyone comes back home for a weekend or so. Oh yeah and i got paid for the first time at this job. the feeling was great, looking at my checking balance and seeing it boosted that much. it was like my bank account picked up a mushroom that was walking by and grew, just like super mario :) hope everyone is fine and well.

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 13:03:52 GMT

i miss my girl :(

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 14:40:53 GMT

We need one more team for fantasy football...contact me if u wanna sign up.

Weekend in Gainesville

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 03:43:09 GMT

Well it was some weekend in gainesville. there was a party at jon/sam/josh's apartment which turned out to be pretty crazy and pretty fun. sleeping on the floor due to a lack of sobriety which led to a lack of ability to drive kenzie and i back to her dorm. the floor is hard.

we we're supposed to be back tonight but due to a missing passenger and hw due tonight at midnight we decided to stay the night here and just go tomorrow morning. my mom got mad at me today cuz she found out that i skip my algebra class. not that it makes any difference cuz i'm still not gonna go but whatever.

I'm Back

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 04:20:26 GMT

Due to some remarks that i was "too cool" for livejournal i decided to return to this addictive pastime of lj posting. And also a large part of my continuation of lj posting was due to my lack of communication with jasmine of whom i miss a great deal and i hope is doing well.

School's been pretty fun, not the classes themselves because they're full of idiots, just the experience and having all the free time. I have a bio test tomorrow that i'm pretty scared about but i studied a crapload more than i normally do and i actually read the chapters so hopefully i'll be ok.

But yeah things are good, its good to be back.

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 02:54:52 GMT

Well guys i've decided to cut myself off from the lj world. I figured that i no longer have any use for it, since i'm sick of having to be discreet about problems and i realized that writing about it doesn't help anything. So yeah its been a good run. Thanks to everyone that ever left me a comment. Hopefully i'll be able to stay in touch with everyone in some other way besides through lj. bye.

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 04:51:44 GMT

I can't help but think the worst.......

Doomed to fail...

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 04:13:04 GMT

Here I am off on my little rants again, but if you must know what's goin on with me this is pretty much it...

Have u ever started something that you know that you would fail. Not a class or a project or something so material and superficial, but like a relationship or a promise. You know the entire time that in the end none of what you are doing is going to result in anything, that everything will just end then and there and maybe not ever even affect you for the rest of your life. And although there may be some downsides to this failing entity, but you always somehow someway thing that everything you are doing is totally worth it which is kinda oxymoronic because you know that when its all over....well its over.

But I've come to realize, through my own experience and through numerous arguments, that although the conclusion may not have any result, the path that you took will someway somehow affect your life forever. Everyone knows you can go the easy way and not get hurt and just avoid all obstacles, but I've also come to know that taking the easy way, you miss out on a whole lot. Its like a path(I'll let you figure out the metaphor, its there if u wanna think about it).

Which leads me to my final point. You can take the easy way and avoid the truth and avoid getting hurt wondering why you decided to take the easy way and what you could be missing out on, or you can take the hard way learning from you're own mistakes and in the process enjoying all those things that the wussies wonder about. But no matter which way you take, I think it doesn't really matter what you come out with, but what you have already experienced that you will one day look back on and smile.

And for all of you that decided that this entry was too long and that you don't care enough, pretty much history is important.

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 02:02:34 GMT

beach sunday. let me know if u wanna come.

BEACH!

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 20:30:43 GMT

wow what an awesome day at the beach. It was almost like a perfect day with a little bit extra. nice day, clear water, nice waves. Surfed a little, remembered how awesome it was. kinda makes me wanna go back tomorrow. Hey, why not i got nothin better to do. We'll see though. Still gotta get warped tour tickets. Hopefully i can find myself enough money before sunday.